The money will be worth it...

So update....Thanksgiving was not super successful.  It was really busy and didn't make a lot of time to work out and I definitely ate more than I should but on the bright side at least I didn't gain anything lol.  So I've started my New Year's Resolution early.  I went to the gym today and signed up for a trainer!  Yes...you heard right!  I finally did it!  lol...it's for 6 months and the sessions are not cheap but in the long run the money will be worth it.  I signed up with the manager over training and I cringed enough with the prices that he ended up taking about 10 dollars off per session.  Lol...too bad I didn't have Bryson around he probably would have got it down even further.

Anyway, Roark was the guy I signed up with.  I will be having an hour long training session for free with him on friday.  He was a little too excited to kick my butt!  Haha.  Then I'll have my permanent trainer for my other half hour sessions 2 times a week.  Roark was super nice and said since I've already been through this before I've already got a jump start on most of the people he signs up.  We made some long term goals.  since the training is for 6 months we set a goal to be down about 60 lbs by the time Brady gets home.  He asked me what reasons I had for setting the goal for June and I told him that Brady would be coming home.  He wondered if there were other reasons...I then told him I was picking up Brady from his mission in the Caribbean and he laughed.  He asked, "oh so you want to look good in a swimming suit?".  Haha, he got it.  He also looked at my license and realized my birthday was the same month.  I will be turning 25 so yes another good reason to reach my goal by then.  :)  He was a really nice guy.  I also set a goal to be able to run a half marathon.  He said if I work hard and get to that point that he will run a half marathon with me.

So I'm excited!  Although I wasn't really wanting a trainer for 6 months or to spend that kind of money, I think that I really need to.  It's what I need to really be held accountable and make it a habit again.  Now I just need to stop spending money anywhere else and try to get this ferveo thing I'm gonna do going.  I should be able to make enough money with that to compensate for the trainer, that is if I can get some other people signed up too.  Plus the drink might help me with the weight loss process too.  Ok, well I think that's it for the update right now.  I'll post again after my first workout with Roark!  lol...should be intense and I'm sure I'll feel it on Saturday.  Well talk to you all later!  Love you!

Things are looking up...

Hey Everybody!

So it's been a week since I wrote my last blog.  I'm happy to report that things are looking up! :)  I have held to everything I wrote in the last post...so far!  And I'm already feeling like a better version of myself.  My roommate even commented on it this morning.  I was making my lunch which consisted of a bagel thin with peanut butter, diced pears,  and some rice/bean chips when she said you're like a brand new person!  I've been working out everyday and trying to eat better.  Last night my roommates when out to dinner and asked if I wanted to join them.  Normally I would but I turned them down and had some cottage cheese and a pear for dinner.  I also worked out double last night.  Went to the gym and used the Elliptical machine for about an hour and then played Just Dance on sweat mode for almost another hour.  Good times!  So now that my body is starting to like working out again I'm hoping that the lbs will start dropping off again too!

I haven't started playing the guitar yet but I have borrowed my friend's guitar and will be finding a book for beginners so I can start learning some chords soon.  I've started writing some lyrics for a song so once I start playing I should be able to find a tune for my song.  I'm excited to get back into music again.  Music really is the love of my life!  It makes me happy and really understands me!  Way better than any boyfriend ;)  haha!

My spiritual side is coming along as well.  Looking forward to the blessings I will be receiving for really putting Heavenly Father first in my life.  I'm so grateful to know what I do about the gospel and eternal families.  I'm grateful to have all of you in my life and that we will always be together.  Thanks for always being there for me!  I love you all!

Back to square one...

I've been working with one of my students on idioms and this is one that he has a hard time understanding the figurative meaning for...back to square one.  It means to start over.  Starting over to me means gaining a new perspective and doing things different.  Well I guess it's that time for me...time to start over.  I feel like up til this point in my life I have done the same thing and expected different results.  I guess that means I'm insane according to Einstein's definition.  I don't want to be insane anymore.  Time to do things different with my mind, body and spirit.  

So what am I going to do differently?  Well for my mind I am starting by learning something new.  I am going to learn how to play the guitar.  I have always wanted to learn how to play this instrument but never really had the motivation to make it happen.  But starting over is giving me a lot of motivation and I plan on not just learning to play the guitar but mastering it.  Some day I hope I am good enough to write some songs.  That has always been a dream of mine and I decided it's time to start following my dreams.  So wish me luck on this new endeavor.  One day I'll play some tunes for you! :)

As for my body, it's time to really hit the gym again.  I think I am going to try to get a trainer for once a month possibly more.  I need someone to keep me motivated, someone who is in the same area as me and will push me to work hard in the gym.  I am also planning on working out with my roommate as much as possible.  These workouts coupled with my well balanced meals will kick start my weight loss again.  I have let this get out of hand.  I have gained back a lot of the weight that I initially lost and I am embarrassed by my body again.  Plus I have noticed more cramps and headaches since I have been lacking in my workouts.  By the time I leave for the West Indies with Mom and Dad in the Summer to pick up Brady I want to weigh less that what I did the last time he saw me.  I believe my weight the last time he saw me was about 190.  So I am aiming to hit 175 and lower if at all possible.  I am going to work hard and I would appreciate you all holding me to this.  It helps to have people on your side that believe in you and give you motivation.  

Now for my spirit!  It's sad to admit this but I have not been reading the scripture like I should.  I start one week and then stop the next.  Honestly, I'm not sure I've read the book of mormon through all the way without stopping.  So I have a goal to read the book of mormon from start to finish before Elder Shepherd gets back.  I want him to be proud of his sister...not just how I look on the outside but who I am on the inside.  I want you all to be proud of me!  

With all of these new changes in my life I know that I will be happy because I am doing all that I can to be the best person I can be.  I know that through this I will find a man that sees who I really am and loves me for me.  A man that will treat me the way I deserve to be treated just like my Dad treats my Mom.  The last man I let into my life was not this man.  I never want to feel the way he made me feel again.  I am excited for the future.  To see what kind of blessings these changes will bring into my life.  So here's to starting over!

Love you all!